31Jan09...

Going back to working life soon...
Really looking forward to it...
Don really like the non working life...
Seem very waste of time...
everyday stick to him like no body business..like glue...
i prefer to live my own life but somehow still always follow him around.
Went to do my nails yesterday .. get myself ready for my PA job on monday ...
and today went to chong house visiting , quite fun ...at least can chat with them,
and my boy also enjoy so much ...sometimes feel life is better off without a man
for you to worry ...
seeing my friends fell down in their marriage and now quite happy with their new life...i am also very happy for them...life got to move on...
Now i am looking forward to my cousins gathering tomorrow.
And for this new year 2009 , i want to work hard to save up $ for my boy
and also to save to bring my boy for a holiday in aust in 2009 , just the 2 of us ...
boy no. 1 , career no. 2 ...

Chinese new year is over !

A short celebration of 2 days chinese new year...
today most people and children either goes to work or school...
a bit too fast... even my boy also complain .. today got to force him to go to school.
He ask me to bring him back early...

This year a bit differ , first day of new year , we went visiting at my hubby's side.
Went to his uncle place for lunch , boy was happy to play with the hamster.
and in the evening , we went to JB for BBQ at the leisure farm , i am glad that
i insist to bring boy along , coz it is am eye opening for s'pore kids...
We went to put fire works...which hubby's friends spend $2k to buy it...
It was beautiful and scary coz the sound is so loud...
Everyone enjoy , it's only around 11pm + , hubby wants to go to a pub with his friends and wants me and boy to go back sin with his another friend...
which i think he is too much and therefore throw big temper at him...
and finally he come back with us...

Second day of new year , went over to my mum's side...
as usual , visiting from one place to another ...
I just feel that the timing to catch up with each other is too short...
It would really be better if we will to go only to one place and everyone
can catch up there and then...
and boy found his play mate...
he love playing with the 2 gege...

New year eve...

Funny right today is the eve of chinese new year and
yet i still got the time to post ...
well most of the things are done,
only let with some praying , reunion dinner , cooking etc...
I must say i am lucky to have my mother in law and of coz she is lucky to have me too...
but her mind set is in those old times...guys cannot do this cannot do that..
then end up do all by herself lor..so poor thing right.
Well as a full time house wife maybe she is used to it ..
but sorry lor i am not a full time housewife ...
I am not very bad lar...at least most of the house work i help and pay most of the marketing ...
oh ya , last friday i went coffee with one of my male friend and my boy.
Well , we had a good time..talking and shopping ...
and funny coz i hold my boy hand and he hold the other side of my boy's hand
and even carry him and bring him to toilet etc...maybe he love kids...
Actually i am not really looking forward to tonight dinner ...
maybe the people that are coming are very sian one lor...
dont have that kind of family feeling with them...
maybe end up during the dinner will sian us some more...
and tomorrow is visiting day...early morning i will go over to my mum hsc..
and will start visiting together with them...
looking forward to see all my cousin...
And for this year , i hoping my new job will be successful and looking forward to go back to the job force again....
another wish is hope my boy will gain weight and grow healthy and my mum too...

23Jan09.

Yesterday i took a bus from my house to my new company...
Just to make sure i know where to alight when i start work...
and of coz he is the one who bring me there and tell me where to alight etc..
coz i dont have sense of direction.
During these few week , i see him almost everyday , and sigh with him everyday..
after knowing where the actual bus stop is , we walk over to Kua Ying Temple to
pray and i got a lot No.95 ...
Few more days it will be chinese new year ...
I wish everyone happiness and healthy.

20Jan09...

Somehow feel that i have wasted my one month...
Wanted to go for holiday but timing not rite and also near to CNY...
and of coz also don have this extra $ to go...
CNY is near and at least i have almost got most of the new year goodies
which is sponsored by my dear sis...
she doesn't know about my problem but she feel that i one month no income
so she instead to pay all for me...very sweet of her ..but she really shouldn't.
and also i got all the new notes ready for ang bao...
sometimes i am quite proud of myself...
i wonder how i go through all these....
Next life i 100% can be a guy , ha ha but i still prefer to be a gal ..
and hope to be loved by my hubby and not so poor life anymore...
I actually prefer to use chinese wordings for my blog...
somehow i feel that i can't express myself very well in english ...
and the meaning that i wan to bring out is not the same..
Yesterday i was thinking maybe it will be somehow better if we both will to let go ..
Maybe it's not so scarey after all...and if it benefits both , why not ?
Whatever he wans to do , he also no need to think about what will happen to my family if i what what what...
and at the same time i also no need to worry abt him...
said easy rite !!!

Gathering...

Had a gathering last evening , had our 1st yu sheng..
It was fun fun fun...
just enjoy talking and listening to cheong...full of nonsense but a joker..
and i made a new friend J ... Surprise that we can click ..
maybe it's because we are almost the same but she already get out of the boat..
and she is much stronger then me...
actually i know what they mean and i understand ... but it's just not easy to take the 1st step... maybe sooner or later ...
ha ha always the same excuse right ...
I must say i am a person that will think for other 1st ,
this is just not the right time to do anything ...

Last night my boy called me and cry because he can't find his fav pillow.
he is like this ...very attach to this pillow...

Grounded at home...

Due to the cough of my son...i got no choice but to be at home.
So many plans are gone...
No choice...
It's really not my type to be a house wife..ha ha.
I may not be a good house wife but i am a good mother...

Changes..

Tot of going shopping with my sis and her 2 little ones...
but who knows my boy is sick...and grounded at home...
so of coz me as the mother cannot go out lor...
it the usual cough that he has...
it been so long since he last cough..
coz i been giving him crocodile essence ..so far so good...
but due to it's very expensive therefore i cut down and end up totally stop
giving him...now i really regret..had just order a second round of essence for him.
So times this kind of thing just cannot save..

So happy ..friday going for yu sheng with my dear fellow ex coll and friends.
looking forward to it ...coz last year i eat with cheong , it was very fun.

As for him , he is in his own world..looking forward for the god to save him.
He has been saved before but end up still walk the same old road..
of coz there are lots and lots of reasons or i should say excuses...
No one is able to wake him ...unless u got the $ to help him settle everything.
then i suppose he will listen to everything u say.
too bad , even i don have this power to out talk him.
he will just have to face problem himself...coz i don have solution liao.

13Jan09.

12 more days to CNY ...
Time passes so fast.. and so scary..
Got so much nonsense to follow up...
Change new notes , Reunion dinner's food etc etc..
Sometimes really hope that there are more than 24 hours in a day..
wanted to post in chinese..but unable to do that with my home computor..
As for home matters, things still never change to the better...
infact it gets worse.. and i am not able to save anyone or anything..
coz i am broke...
If really money can solve a problem , then it's not a problem anymore...
Those guys out there always thinks $ can solve their problem but
to me it can only solve it at the moment and will come back again..
so it's they themselve got to wake up their bloody idea...
bad habits die hard and never learn the lessons...
how many more chance will a person be given.....?????

Looking forward ...

so fast ...12 days has passed for my stay at home day...
beside doing homework , taking care of kids..be a high class maid in my sis place
doing facial , slimming etc...nothing else.
I think working life suits me more...
at least i got things to do and to use my brain.
I am actually looking forward to work in feb...but i will have less time wz boy.
coz it's consider a big project..in fact we will be there to set up the new dept..
consider pioneer... it's really going to be a very busy year
therefore we need a long break now..ha ha

Yesterday we finally had our family time...we bring boy for jogging and then swimming.. he really behave like me ..
not sure nowadays is it i am short temp...or is it boy really getting more and more naughty...but of coz at times he is real sweet...like yesterday , he says he wans to see how i cook...i ask him why so kpo..he say so that next time when he grow up , he knows how to cook for me...very very sweet rite...
He just melt my heart...

"Panda"

I looks like a panda today...
Last nite he came back at around 3am...
I dont even remember when is the last time i waited for his door...
Well...anyway i throw big temper since 6pm...
coz it's suppose to be a sat family day , end up without and warning and reason,
he had an appointment wz friends...
of coz he came back quite drunk...
my blood really boil.
am not sure what is he up to...
but knows that he is very stress up with $$$ problem...
anyway he wasted all my time by staying at home ...

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Bought new years clothes...

Yesterday i got a fruitful day... bought 2 new year clothes and 2 working clothes..
look like a PA lor...and very executive look...
I bought my clothes at suntec...the usual shop verge..
one year once i go there...
At 1st i tot one month staying at home is a bit too long...
but time pass so fast ...i think i got not enough time to use.
Today will also be a busy day for me...

08Jan09...

1st time really stay at home to lazy around after i resign...
a bit bore...
and my silly nokia handphone giving me problem...
so i got no choice but to buy another one...
My new fav LG phone...surprise..it's quite user friendly
and best of all , touch phone...
like very stylo lor...KC910...

Tot can spend some "dating" time with my hubby today..
like shop for new year clothes..and have western dinner together etc...
end up not able to ...a bit disappointed lor...
i told him i wan to go suntec to shop for clothes...
end up he ask his mum along...
what can i say ?
since he not sensitive enough to know that i wan to spend time alone with him...
shit man ...if i know it's going to be like this...i should have go for my facial instead...
and tomorrow i wont be so stupid to stay at home to wait for him to bring me out...
i go out by myself...
dont he knows that i am only feel this month and from feb onwards 6 month
down the road got no leave ok...
anyway forget it...
he just dont understand me well enough..that is the only thing i can say.

I am back...from course...ha ha

Sooooooooooooooo long never write on my blog...
cause i am so busy with house cleaning for 4 solid days...
but the result... i am very pleased ..the house is so clean and me and boy
even put up the new year deco...
During these few days of my alone with boy...
we really enjoy it so much...
and i actually can't believe it that i am able to take care of the hsc and boy..
i can even cook dinner ...but due to i am very sensitive to dirt so now i even got rashes on my face...
it just makes me think that life without him is not so scary after all...
it actually just a matter of getting used to it...
3 cheers for myself...

And another reason is i am on a 3 days course in shenton way...
OMG that is the place that i dont like to be in...
every morning every one rush like mad...
and the worse thing is lunch time...very scarey...
and guess wat , tissue paper everywhere...
coz ppl used it to block seats during lunch...
i was telling my friend...next time we block seats with a pad , ha ha...

Now finally the course is over...
i think i should be able to get quite good results...

tonite when i reach home , my boy is in tears...
he say teacher told him that when children fall asleep,
a big black thing will comes in to eat them up...
his tears drop...poor thing rite...
as for him...although he didn't mention but i know he is not in a very good mood.
reasons more or less it's abt the same thing...
not sure what to do or what to say..
guess i just have to do my part...
take good care of my boy...
and look forward to my new job in feb...

yah today i meet up with my ex coll...happy to see them..
and there is one friend that i really feel very happy for him...
coz he has found his true love and someone who will treasure him more than the ex.
and i must say this girl is fortune to find him too...
i hope they will treasure each other and the road ahead will not be easy..
but i know they will pull through...

First day !!! 010109

Soooooo busy one the 1st day of 2009...
Busy with house work....
Bcoz MIL and hubby all not in town ...
left with me and boy...
Glad that the whole house belongs to me for at least few days...
I just enjoy this feeling...but not too long ..few days ok liao..
i don wan to be too long " huang lian po "
haha
lucky now no work...or else tired like shit lor...
Now going to put the naughty boy to bed...