Update

So long never blog....
I come back from kl till now everyday also very very busy...
busy with work , quotation , meetings...
think i will be away on business trip during early may and early jun...
it really good to be busy !
as for family ...this trip came back from kl realise that my boy grow up alot...
but still very skinny...
and this trip also makes me more independant...
we just went for a family day at sentosa ...boy really enjoy...
and seeing him so happy , everything pay off...
i spend a total of $111.00 for visiting 4 places in sentose..
really ex... but once a while is alrite....
next year boy is going for primary school...think i will put him also in student care...i more or less decided...
this arrangment will be better for him.
as for myself...still the same old thing...
only differ is now i care more about my career...and boy..

20Mar09 - still away...

today is the third day that i am away...
2more days to go and i will be back in sin soon...
missed my little one who is normally home with the grandmother...
sometimes i find him really poor thing...mummy not in town and the daddy not at home...
actually i really cant understand..
anyway last nite slept at around 2am ...today got to wake up at 6am...
and whole day busy ..miss my bed..
update a bit about this trip..
1st day was like lots of hicups...lorry late , tc not happy and some rooms not ready etc etc..but i told myself..today lots of nonsenses , tomorrow will be better...
second day got lots of free time but no where to go coz too far from town etc...
end up spend $ on spa and facial...it was consider cheap..total 3 hours abt RM170+.
Then night went for japanese dinner. taste was alrite.these few days i eat lots of fruits..cause all my fav water melon , papaya etc.
think i put on weight again..
today will be out from 7am-11pm i guess...
good to be busy then no time to think lots of nonsense..
and today i am expecting an answer.. and no matter what the answer is , i am well prepared and i will take what comes .. THINGS WILL HAPPEN WHEN THEY ARE MEANT TO BE !
Ya bought my boy a broad game..actually wanted to get him the ski gear but end up with a junior broad game...he is the power of my life... Miss my boy so much.

Away.

Going away for awhile....due to work...
it may be good in a way to leave for a while...
but the person i miss most is of coz my boy...
he is so sweet , unlike the father...
who is already sleeping like a pig since 9pm...
my boy say mummy i will miss you ...can i call you when you away?

p/s: yesterday i posted all ????? because i very down and really got nothing more to say ...very very sian with him ! never endless trouble , never endless hole !

16 March 2009 ....

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Family day !

A family day ...me and boy only !
To the singapore science centre...
I guess boy enjoy..
the most eyes opening thing is not anything is the science centre...
it is .....
the science centre actually flooded ... ha ha ha...
even inside the science centre...very funny right..
how can a place of interest flood ?
but lucky we almost finish when rain drops came inside the building ...
and when we about to leave , outside of coz also flooded...
cars cannot come in and cannot go out...
what matters is my boy enjoy ....
p/s : me ? i am of coz disappointed !

missing my chinese post...

I really really miss posting in chinese ...
could i feel that i could express myself better ..
how to type in chinese ? i dont know..last time i use my nokia phone and email to myself , from there i copy and paste..now using LG i cannot email...
headache...
well it been so long since i really take time to think of my feeling and post in my blog..
reason is because i been busy in work and because i dont wan to pick up a war in my blog , because i really got no solution and no intention to settle anything at the moment...family is still too important to me....call me useless what ever , i dont care...like what i saw in lotus blog...放弃一个很爱你的人并不痛苦,放弃一个你很爱的人那才痛苦...
yes indeed it true ...only i know myself feeling and only i can decide for myself..
well i am going away on a 5 days working trip...
kind of looking forward to it ...

p/s : lotus thanks for your post...

A gathering day ...

This morning , sis and mum bring us all out to eat "dian xin"
cause sis say she did not buy me anything for my birthday...
so this meal she pay...
then meet up with my brother to go to ex coll 's daughter birthday party..
It was a so call gathering for us ...and i am glad that they still get me involue
even i am no longer in the company...
and i guess so were shock to see me bring another guy along and that my boy
is quite closed to him too...well he is my brother ..know him for almost 10 years..
after that bring the little one to see doctor...very worry about him ..
always cough ...and doc say he is very very under weight...
not sure what can do done ..
and brother was there till we finish seeing doctor..
really hope i am able to get him a job in my company...
looking forwards to work with him again...

Messy !!!

What shall i say ?
What can i do ?
Not sure ...
what is the best solution to overcome this problem ?
Things are getting a little messy !!!
I also not sure what can i do ?
It does affect my work alittle esp today and i know i am trying very hard not to !
Cannot really do my work well today ...
so sorry to boss !
I promise i will quicky get back into the right mind ...
And work hard ...
I pray of his safety ...

My Birthday !!!

Today is my birthday !!!
Birthday in the younger days is special and is a die die must celebrate day , ha ha!
Maybe i age liao ...now this day at this age , can let me rest a day , i am already very happy ! And yesterday in office was so " ma lo" ...got a delivery of flower to office for me ...pie say is because i am only one month old in office...and imagine the MD run in to tell you to go out to sign for my flower...haha i would say it more of pie say then anything lor...anyway big boss also give me a ang bao and best of all , a day off today ...which i needed very badly ...
If you guys are guessing is it my hubby who send me the flower ...
U have the wrong guess...
It KC..thanks alot ...it does cheer me up but dont waste money lar...
Now in work is more challenger ...coz me and boss only got one goal....
to brand (make known) our company name..and we think we can make it ...
so now everyday is not just report to work ...
i like it...although tired but positive is good ...and having a goal is best ...

Mind game = Tired !!!

It been so long since i blog...
it's not that things are improving neither is it things are getting worse..
it that i am just too tired to blog...
busy with work , after work already dog tired ...
i am not afraid of my readers getting sick of my happening and honestly i don't care!
still the same old thing in me and my marriage
nothing to be happy about and nothing to be sad about...
Birthday coming..as i grow older , the things that i want or expect is different...
last time when i was young , i wish for a wonderful boy friend
when i get marry , i wish for a baby
now i wish for a happy family with responsible people living inside
had met an old friend last few days , she just had a divorce..
which the hubby has got a china woman 5 years ago...
and the hubby of hers kept asking for divorce..
but because of love , because of the 2 boys , she hold on to the family...
she told herself that she will give herself 5 years.
finally the day that her mum pass away , she agree to divorce...
why she hold till 5 years ?
alot of you may think she is silly , stupid etc but her reason is she wants to
make sure that when she sign this paper , she has totally give out on this man
and will not regret what she did...
this is what i have in mind too...
anyway like what she say , "she is not in a rush to divorce"
she needs to be answerable to herself...
this time round i find her very tough ! she really give out on him ...
i admire her spirit...
another friend of mine , which is a married man so call girl friend...
she and me is quite alrite friend
but i just hate it that she loves to play mind game esp with that man
i can't understand why must do that and i really really really hate it lor...