美发院 - 27nov08.

昨天拿假…去了一趟美发院，为自己改头换面。
从以往的rebonding换成perm..
是对我来说是很大的一个改变，不知道是自己发什么神经，突然想改变。
不知道会不会后悔，如果会也后悔莫及了。

Perm 了头发后，不可以懒惰了，
每天都要带隐形眼镜，要在脸上图得美美的。
要不然会很土。
真的希望自己会美美的。

At nite bring my son to nite safari with the family...
The kids had a good time..

Economic down....

Situation in thailand has worsen...
Very sad , such a thing happen at such a time when the economic is so bad ...
people in the whole are now facing retrenchment and pay cut...
such a thing happen will only pull down the economic further..
Not sure what will the tourism be like ?

My cousins are stuck over there..no flights to come back...
It's really a life experience.
Lets hope the airport will reopen tomorrow.

Feeling a little down today ...

and Ying ..i am not very sure what kind of the problems are you facing...
We may not know each other but some how we have similar things..like soft hearted.
Sometimes what we face in life may not be what we want.
And how we treat people , people may not treat us the same way.
For me , at times i need to 改变自己来适应环境..
I know it's not easy...
Most important , know yourself , dont force yourself , 让自己开心...
I am in no position to tell you how to face life coz i am not very good as well..
I am a 知足 person...
做什么都要对得起自己的良心。
我们对人好，真的不可能要求一样的对待。
我常说：人在做，天在看。

终于圆了我的好奇梦。

人都有好奇心。
终于昨天让我圆了我的好奇梦。
事情已经过了两年，但是还很想知道她到底长得什么样子。
长得清秀，温柔…
和我所想象的不太一样。
人们常说，得不到的终是最好的。
也许吧！
现在的我只希望她过得好，珍惜自己的新生活。
默默的祝福你,Y。

weekend was a little bore...

Started to clean up my room and wardrobe since sat...
and really really really so messy...
esp wardrobe ...got so many dresses that i am unable to wear and yet i kept
them till now...
hoping that one day i slim down alittle and i will be able to wear them again ..ha ha.
Fat hope...
Finally i took them out and decided to give it to others that are able to wear them...
Heartache but guess i got no choice.

As for my room , i changed the bed sheet and clean up alittle...
hoping that hubby will have a sense of belonging when he is back..
At least the house will not be is such a mess...
And bed room is suppose to be cosy...
Was hoping to get a mini CD player so that before bed time i can play some soothing music then i can sleep better.

As i was so busy with the house work...i neglect my son...
never bring him go out ...
Just go for his extra lesson and back home...
Guess he is a little bore but he is also a very nice boy...
Never really make a big fuss over it...

Anyway i have already plan to take him out on tues nite to the club to take pic with Madagascar..
and thur i will bring him to nite safari...
I am looking forward to it and really really hope the daddy can still remember these 2 days of activity with the family.
I believe it would be very fun and boy is sure to enjoy...

不要以为我什么都无所谓！

不知道什么时候开始自己变得很计较，尤其在工作上…
感觉自己做得终是比别人多，人家就反而更得寸进尺。
就好比老板交给我的事情，
我从来不喜欢搁在一旁，
我终是会在一天结束前把它赶完。
同样的事交给同事做，
这位同事很会“keng”终喜欢吧事情留到最后一天，
所以往往又变成我必须连她那份也要做。
我通常没有埋怨，但是真的越来越过分，变成老板什么都推给我。太过分了。

19Nov08 / Cloudy

Feeling a little down today , maybe i did not have a good sleep last nite...
Nothing in mind but just feeling cloudy , like the weather...
Today is mum birthday , wanted to give her a surprise by poping by this noon ,
who knows , she surprise me by not being at home ..ha ha ,
end up i only see my sister and the 2 little ones...
The 2 gals have grow up a lot and now they are very fun and naughty too.

Back in ofc , so sleepy , business really affected i guess...not much of a phone call...

These few days i am quite hot temper esp towards my boy ,
tends to be a little more strict towards him...
and nowadays he also know how to answer back lor...
Well i know i am not a good mother , i really at a lost of how to teach kids..
and if u ask me , have all my problem settle?
The answer is no..
Is just that i never really go and think abt it , coz at this very moment , debt is the biggest issue to settle...
About love , about affairs , currently never bring up ...
My dearest cousin seem to have some problem lately ...
ask me meet up with me and have a talk...
Of coz i am most willing to but how am i going to give him advise ,when i myself is so 失败 in life...

Another thing that i am upset about is , i have suddenly put on lots of weight and even my jeans ,
i got problem wearing it...Oh my god !!!

减薪或裁员

面对金融风暴，经济不稳定的情况下，听说公司有可能减薪或裁员。
但一切还没有确实。
如果是真的，对我的影响很大。
家里所有大大小小的帐单，开销，就会出问题。
现在生活已经很省了，真不知道接下来会怎么样？
如果卖屋子，down grade四房或拿new flat,
中间也需要cash money.总之就是两头不着岸，
不要想太多了，
船到桥头自然直，
要能屈能伸。
只希望一家人健健康康，一起挨过这个危机。
加油！加油！

priority seat ?

Lots and lots of differ kind of ppl.
Mrt has got this priority seat for special needs..
Today a lady who says that she is not feeling well ask another lady to give up her seats to her.
Guess wat the answer: i just seat down why should u come and ask me?
The older woman reply: i am not feeling well.
The woman who is seated at the priority seats say: Then you should get down the train.
Scary rite.. Singapore got this kind of ppl. So i give up my seat.
But the woman sure is horrible..
Even if she is not seated at the priority seat , anytime people needs it, u would have to give up your seats.

Yesterday we pre celebrated mum birthday..
Family day which include my hubby.
Early am bought the 3 kids to Playground @ Big Splash to have fun at the Frisk 'n' Romp .
They really enjoy esp my boy.
It makes me wonder is it my son birthday or my mum?
Any way i know mum is happy enough to see the grand children enjoying themselves. And of coz we bought her a mango cake too.

心情舒畅...

很开心又是星期五了，今天的天气也算不错，心情自然也舒畅！
也许是昨晚终于上"大号"了，哈哈！
前几天我便秘了，5天都没上大号，肚子很涨，心情也很烂。
那种感觉真的很要命。
昨天，老板知道了，就买了一瓶药水fleet,就是这个救星帮了我。
还有一件让我心情愉快的事，
昨天我老公第一次买衣服给儿子，而且是他自己去买的。
眼光还不错。
真的，虽然他没买东西给我，可他这次还会买给儿子，我真的很高兴，很bonus.

News...Senior immigration officer charged

A SENIOR immigration officer was charged in district court yesterday for accepting about $140,000 in bribes.
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Mr Dong xxxxxx , a deputy superintendent of the Immigration & Checkpoints Authority is accused of accepting bribes ranging between $5,000 and $48,000 on12 occasions.
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The court heard that at the time of the alleged offences, the 54-year-old oversaw a unit that grants social visit passes to foreigners. In return for the bribes he took from one Mr Edmund xxxxxx , believed to be a syndicate member, Mr Dong allegedly extended the social visit passes of Chinese and Vietnamese nationals who otherwise might not have been eligible for such extensions. Mr Dong is believed to have either granted the extensions himself or directed his staff to do so. He has been suspended from duty.
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If convicted, Mr Dong faces a fine not exceeding $100,000 and/or imprisonment up to five years for each charge.

雨天…

凉凉的天气让我不想起身。
赖在床上的感觉真好…
看着儿子熟睡的样子，感觉他好像一个天使，那么单纯，那么善良。
不像在大人的世界里，那么黑暗，那么复杂…
有时想想，是社会的影响吗？
要在这社会有立足之地就真的要有心机，要甩手段吗？
真的是人们常说的，人不为己，天诛地灭？
对我来说，做什么事都要对得起自己的良心，要问心无愧…
人不负我，我不负人。
上个月，我做了件从来没有做过的事…
对不对的起良心，我不知道，我只知道，
她不惹我，我不会惹她。
没办法，
我一定要保护我的家庭，我不能坐着等着事情发生，所以我选择阻止。
至少我不会有遗憾。至于我会不会成功，只有听天由命了。
最近听说，政府部门有个人因为收了某某集团的钱，所以常常胡乱批准social pass，
他知不知道，我们的国家真的很多流莺？
这会照成社会多大的问题…?!?

孩子的成长过程…

身为人母真的不容易。
我儿子今年才五岁，我已经深深的感受到这点。
记得当时知道自己怀孕后，感觉还没有过够二人世界。
刚开始的几个月更是吐个半死。
当时心里好讨厌这个孩子。
老公整天出去，我就好像坐牢一样。
记得在肚子里4个月时，医生说孩子可能有问题，要我抽洋水…
听了后，
我哭了，不断的跟肚里的孩子说：妈妈爱你，你千万不可以有事。
还好结果是虚惊一场，从那时开始，我也比较珍惜这个得来不易的孩子。

终于等到孩子出世了，圆圆的眼睛，大大的鼻子，很像我。
照顾他也是no joke，每晚都哭，害的我每天上班都好像panda一样。
还好这些我挨过了。
现在是担心他的身体健康和体重太轻的问题。
他现在说话也很甜，也会逗我开心。
真的他是我活着的推动力。
只要他健康成长我就很开心了。
也许这就是身为人母的伟大吧！

Hi I am back !!!

好久好久没有写部落了。
因为真的很忙，
在办公室又不能上网，回到家又要陪儿子，自己也快累死啦！
这几天的生活还挺宁静的。
在上个星期日，老公的事业传来了喜讯…也算得上有点成就，真的很为他开心！
希望这个喜讯可以让他回复以往的信心，重新振作…
毕竟他不是完全没有用，只是走错了，自暴自弃。
发现自己还是心软的，还是很在乎他的。

Bringing up a child...

weekend was always the same for me...
last nite bring the kids to changi airport T3...
for shopping and dinner ..siow rite...went all the way to airport.
But my boy have fun..
Sometimes i look at him , i am quite worry..
coz he is so " soft " , abit only his tears will drop...
Not sure how to teach him , coz i am the same kind but what worry me is,
I am gal but he is a boy ..how can he little bit only drop tears...
sometimes bring up a child can be a big headache...

忙

最近很忙，也许忙是好的。
不会让自己的脑袋想一许有的，没的。
暂时不想，人也会变得快乐点。
很想找份part time赚多点钱，可是不知道做什么？
昨天报告出来了，一切正常，
只是有点infection..吃药就会好的。
It's not easy to be a lady !!!
每天都好累，希望可以好好休息！

加油，加油！

昨天和一位朋友聊天。
谈天说地，
突然她爆出了一句：“你这样做人很辛苦。你一定要坚强。”
害得我的眼泪在眼角里打滚！

回头想想，也对。
这一路走来，心里有多少委屈都是往肚里吞。
从小就是这样。好多好多的事都不可能跟妈说…
真不知道我是怎么挨过来的？
我的性格一点都不象妈，
我比较象我的阿姨也是带大我的人（奶妈）她是个非常好的人，
她很爱我。我也很爱她。
她就是那种嫁鸡随鸡，嫁狗随狗的人，
我好象也是这样。
现在我只想对自己说加油，加油！

Really enjoy my weekends ...

Sat bring boy to his new childcare ..and seeing the smile on his face...
I knew that he really like the place and i feel the teachers are good too..
And boy was there till 12noon .. as it was a newly open childcare , so everything
are new...
And for dinner we (whole family) went for clay pot rice..
although it is just a normal dinner but i just love the family feeling esp
with boy and hubby...and as sunday nite we got a wedding dinner to attend
so i never go to my mum place...but from her voice i can sense that she's not happy..

Sun morning boy wanted to make sandwich for me and the papa to eat...
so i cut for him some ham , cheese etc then he do the rest...
i was so happy that he has grow up ..now can even make sandwiches for us ..
so excited that i forgot to take pic of the sandwich...
to me , it was the best sandwich that i ever taste..thanks son !
Sun noon the daddy bring the son for a swim..
it was fun watching them...
at 1st boy was happy than later he got scare coz he say the daddy refuse to let
him hold the floater...and of coz end up he is in tears...
I think it's becoz he don have confident in the daddy..
and the daddy always like to use force...
anyway we all enjoy..
at nite like i mention ...we attended a wedding dinner ...
when i see people gets marry..always brings back alot of memory..
during the dinner , boy enjoy the most...
he enjoy the food , enjoy seeing the bride...
overall , it a family event and we all enjoy !