Love !

What is love ?
How deep can a person love be ?
To love someone unconditional, is it healthy ?
To love someone but end up getting yourself very hurt , is it normal ?
How mercy can a person be ?

Love this song !!! 我不难过

我不难过 Lyrics
作词：杨明学　作曲：李偲菘　编曲：Kenn C.

又站在你家的门口　我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候　还能多久

终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手　但我已不在　你心中

我真的懂　你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有　陪在你身边当你寂寞时候
别再看着我说着你爱过　别太伤痛
我不难过　这不算什么　只是为什么眼泪会流我也不懂

就让我走　让我开始享受自由
回忆很多　你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱　你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞　这会是我　最后的宽容

抱紧我　再抱紧我
这一份感动　请你让我留在胸口
别再说　是你的错
爱到了尽头　是非对错就让它随风
忘了所有　过得比你快活

我真的懂　你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有　陪在你身边当你寂寞时候
别再看着我说着你爱过　别太伤痛
我不难过　这不算什么　只是为什么眼泪会流我也不懂

不要再说　或许这是最好的结果
现在分手　总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手　离开你左右
我向前走　这会是我　真正的解脱

19nov09

Have not been blogging for the pass few months...reason: getting tired of my own blog and my own life...
everything seems to be repeating over and over again...
giving me hope and pushing me all the way down again and giving me hope again...
i believe he is not going to change.
but at the same time , there's no action that i wan to do...
search me...not even sure what am i doing myself...
currently i am in desaru ..leading a group but home matter is in a mess...
the worse is i cant cry...
and the thing that i am now looking forward to is , boy going to P1 next year...
not sure what to blog about...i only want to sigh sigh sigh...
anyway i bought this upon myself...no body to blame...

6 sense !!!

women six sense...
for me ..is always 80% true...
Am quite sure of my six sense....
Been busy with work which next weekend is a very important week for me...
because natas fair ...all these months hard work will pay off from there...
I cannot let anything affect me , next week...
it's too important for me...as it will be a report card to me...
having doing two special project ... and if natas these two project dont sell,
i am going to hang myself...ha ha
nothing can affect me, not even him...
he been giving me lots of pressure lately..
and bad habits die hard, this is true...
but to me this is still not as scarly...
If i am correct...something else is even more scarly then this...
and i am very sure of that...
not sure how will i face it...
i will just pass day by day...
why do people like to take me for a ride?
why cant they think of my feelings..
been ery short temper lately...
because of all the unknown i have in me...
i want nothing but the truth !!!

Feeling tired !

This is the first time after 6 months that i really feel tired working in this company...
too much polities , i think...
even when i am always quiet...
doing my thing..trouble still comes...
but i am not at all worry ...because whatever i do , is for the company good...
like i always says...
There will always be a time when everything just dont seem right...
Humans, family and work...
no worries , because this is part of life...
for me , as long as i do my best and live my day with fullness..
there will be no regards !!!

summary...

Have been very busy with work lately...
Have been doing some issue that the boss say ...it's not my main job...
but do i have a choice of not to do it ?
since on day 1 i have started this project ?
nevermind ...now that all my products are out in the market , i will just have to
"cheong" all the way during natas...
By the way ... i have done a 6day korea with boys over flowers site for oct..
and only one travel date , 13oct09....once and for all , after this no more this
special itine..maybe next year oct ...
next 2 program is winter 8d in jeju and seoul...one stay in ski resort which the
price will be more expensive and another one is to stay in pension ...which singaporean has not really try , but the price is much cheaper...and the pension
is beautiful ...
actually i am very proud of my 3 product...include bandung which lately more people asking....
Do drop me a email if you are interested in this itinerary ..and i will be happy to
forward it to you.

As for my boy p1, must say we are really lucky , because we got a place through balloting of 35 people , for 18 seats...and my boy's name was the 5th to call..

For my marriage life...it almost goes into the drain , really almost...
it's until 4 days ago that he was in pain and i send him to SGH...
while waiting for observing , things flow through my mind...
and the feeling of seeing someone you love in pain is really hurting...
but thank god at the end he was fine and no need to admit ...
i am just happy to have him back home after almost the full day of hospital visit..
i know there are lots of people around feeling that i am stupid..
yes , maybe i am...
but really no one knows better then myself and my heart...
what we have gone through ...
what was being done to hurt the relation...etc etc
all these no need to go into details...
for myself , for him , for our son...
we will give it a try again...
no body will expect how my son react and what he has say when i hint him that we " the grown up" problems and that we will have to go our way...
he is just a 6 years old child but he is very mature and very very homely !
i remember on the day of balloting , i went there with a " ping cang xing"...
not at all worry if i can get a place in the school or not...
during the ballot i just tell my god...
" i will let you choose the path for me ...."
and soon after i say that , my son's name was being mention....
i would say it amazing ...
but at that moment i am still having second thought...
it's only after the ballot , i went home to see him in pain and follow by
sending him to A&E etc etc...
all happens in one day...
it's only then i knows this is still the family that i want...
and i still love him alot...
life is short ...

Happy Birthday S'pore !

Just like to wish S'pore Happy Birthday !!!

no one really understand

have been feeling very stressful these days...
with boy p1 which needs balloting...
with office matters...
with home matters...
if everything goes " well" , it may be something to be happy or it may be something to sob...
whatever it's going to be , it's going to be tough.
and no one really understand why am i doing it...
maybe there are 2 person that at least understand me ..
one is BK and another is JH...Thank you to both.
I have my reasons...and i dont care if people agree , i just do my part!
Work have been very stressful...and finally my korea program is out ,
but due to some other issue in another department ..it become a killing your own
company at the end of the day...
I can only say ...it's stupid !
brainless...coz at the end of the day , the business is still belongs to the company.
why want to make it so personal...
fight with other company product and not your own , stupid!
and dont try to act like a " hao ren"....