My thoughts ...

Met my cousin for dinner last nite...although i ordered my fav "peking duck pizza"
but somehow it just dont taste as nice as before...cousin say maybe it's due to our lousy mood...maybe he is rite.

During the dinner we chat quite alot , somehow we both are able to talk about everything under the stars..coz he trust that i won't not go around telling people.
To me , i am there to lent him a listening ears , he is no longer a little boy..he is a growth up now... i can only give him a few suggestion and my feeling etc , really , i can't tell him what is right and what is wrong and i also can't tell him walk by path A instead of B... I treasure the relationship that we both have ... i am always the person he will talk to when he is down through out these years.. not even his own brother...He even mention that he remember last time when we are still schooling , he came over my house to stay and at night listen to my problems...hee hee...he still remember..

After the whole conversation , i knew that he is big enough to think...i won't go and nag at him , as long as i am still his soul mate , as long as he needed someone to talk to , i am always there ! He is a smart young man ...
My thoughts is " Every house hold got their own problem behind the closed door !"
and a person who loves too much will be the one hurting most...

At home , as usual , my dearest boy waiting for me... he has been a very sweet boy , i must say.. he say he miss papa (who is in malaysia)...

As for myself , these few days have been so angry with my sore eyes...till now dare not wear lens...and with my perm hair , wearing glasses i really look very auntie lor...and nowadays cannot stand my perm hair also ...too troublesome and messy...although i look more mature and looks like a independent woman...
Feel like going for reborn again ...hee hee ...just like in my marriage...
I feel my marriage is like my reborning ...i get sick and tired of it ...so i decided to change ...to perm my hair but end up i still think reborn is still the best and suit me more...crazy thinking right....

随缘吧!

昨天又是拿了病死在家待了一天，没什么大病，只是换上红眼症罢了。
是老公传的。
我的抵抗力一向比较差。

晚上翻阅报纸看到王燕清离婚的事，真的感叹家家有本难念的经…
十几年经营的婚姻又怎么样？
缘份尽了，谁也挽回不了什么，心里多不舍又能怎样？
也许就是人们常说的，该放手的时后就该懂得放。
这点不是每个人做得到的。

至于我就是那种死心眼的要命的人，
几时会醒悟我也不知道，
心要伤几次，我也不知道！
现在我们过着family life..我想是因为男人口袋没钱，做不了怪吧！
他也许会到马国发展，我不能不让他发展，
老实说我好怕历史会从演，尤其是他这种不甘寂寞的人。
话说回来，人要变，你把他绑在身边也没有用。
随缘吧！

上天已经有了安排...

感觉好压力…
日子真的是越来越难过了。
在这3－4个月里，我们经历了很多…
我们没有吵架，只有商量，感情也进步了。
一起挨到现在，真的不容易，眼看债务就快清了，但是这条路真的很难走下去…
又圣诞节，又过年，那样不需要用＄，尤其过年更要命。
真的想都不敢想。

我答应过会陪他一起走过这段坚难的路，我一定会咬紧牙关，坚持下去。
也许很傻但希望傻人有傻福吧！
也希望他会从失败中学习，从新站起来。
我相信每件事的发生都有它的原因，
上天也许现在不告诉你答案，
但是终有一天时机成熟了，
他会让你知道的…
这叫：“上天已经有了安排！”

做父母与做孩子…做好自己的本分

昨天中午发生了一件“大”事，让我有很多的感触。
我敬爱的阿姨打电话来向我兴师问罪，因为她说表弟不见两天了。
而我是和他最谈得来的人，可能会知道些什么。

这个表弟是从小到大不需要我们担心的，是个前途无量的年轻人，也是我最疼爱的。
记得中学的时后，我和他有个协议，
谁以后学坏了就要给对方＄5，哈哈，很好笑对吧！

听到阿姨那颤抖的声音，我开始有所担心…一直在想有什么办法可以找到他。
我了解做父母的那种心情…
所以我决定私底下帮忙找人。
情急之下我打电话到他的公司去，想知道如果他有上班，至少我们不必太担心…
他上司还答应帮我问问其他同事有没有看见他。
我以为自己很厉害…也没用大脑想一下后果。

谁知晚上突然来个电话说表弟在家了。
回来了当然好。
他怪妈妈小题大作，更认为我不该打到公司去。
这点我承认是我的错误，刚开始我不断道歉。
后来他说我多事，我一气之下把他骂的狗血淋头。
我们吵架了…
这真的是第一次。
我跟他说，是我不对，
但是做父母的担心孩子没有错。
做儿子的出门不回家，没交代，就有错！

在这个世界上，每个人都要做好自己的本分。
每个人都身兼数职，要做好那麽多角色也真不容易。
但是一定要明白人们的担心不是多余的！

感性!

昨晚在回家的路上，抬头看天看见了双星伴月。
那两颗星星是多麽的亮。
回到家里看见可爱的儿子，眼里含着泪，
一问之下原来是他在学校做了两个饼干，
要带回来给我和爸爸尝尝，
谁知刚才不小心掉在马路上了。
说着眼泪又在眼角打滚。
真是个感性的傻孩子。
我告诉他: "妈妈知道一定好吃，下次我们一起动手做。"
他才破涕为笑。
他就和我一样，很感性。
不知道这样好不好…

日有所思，夜有所梦!

昨天早上一起床发现眼皮莫名其妙的肿了一大块。
看了医生，给了一天病假…
在家的日子好闷，老公又整天睡觉，把我气个半死。
后来他说晚上要去新山，明天才回来。
真的，心里有几万个不愿意，又能怎么样。
心想为什么非去不可呢？
自己心里总是在想他是约了别的女人见面。
有始之终他还是那个爱玩，爱刺激，爱跟在pub的女人“说有的，说没有的。”
有首歌…“他不会是个好男人，也不会是个好情人…”
他就是那么自我，事情决定了，从来不会去理会别人的感受。

昨晚我一直做恶梦…梦见他好多女朋友，
也许是日有所思，夜有所梦吧！

Dec already ?!?

Time really flies...Now is already Dec...
So many activities coming along...
Andy Lau's concert , Xmas dinner , end of 2008...
new year , chinese new year etc...

Not sure how is the year going to end and not sure is it going to be a good start..

These few days was quite " family day" for me...
We did alot of things together as a family...

Of coz i am happy ..and i really how this happiness will last..

As for boy he is very happy too...coz he enjoy all the fun.
Just last sunday i bring him for shopping , eating ice cream , toy r us to get him a xmas present.

And yes cousins are back from bangkok..haven't get a chance to talk to them ..
but all are fine..

Me getting lazy these days...maybe is due to festival period...
or maybe i am sick of my job...
i am not sure...
But i am happy with my family life...
I love him and i love my boy too...