Just read in a chinese news paper find it quite true...when people fall in love, they can really do lots of silly things...everything also can endure..."ren , ren , ren".
Sometimes i just wonder...guys cannot have too many things in mind at one go? I am not sure...
Maybe they just don know how to run their own time ..
At times i wonder ...maybe hubby..is too much into gamble and lots of $ problem that he overlooked alot of other things which are as important...
anyway i am in no mood to talk about this at the current moment...
the most important thing now is my boy's health...
Last nite my little one had fever again in the mid nite 39.5...stress...both me and boy didn't sleep till 3am...i was putting on ice pack for him...at first he complaint feeling cold then after a while he complaint feeling hot...
Just when will this fever go away.....
Saturday, 30 August 2008
Friday, 29 August 2008
The truth always hurts...
Just read Lotus posting for today...
Came across something that she mention...she say when 2 person came together ..they tends to wish or hope that the other person will behave as they wanted them too.. she maybe rite in some sense but at the same time...it's really case to case ...take my case for example...what i wan is just that when i fell ill , he will be there to feed me medi , to take my temp , to help me a bit with the kid...i don think i am asking for too much on this issue..
I think his love for me is getting less...or should i say he feel he has got more important things and he feel i can wait... whatever it is , we are very differ..today we bring boy out for breakfast..on our way back alittle bit of rain ...so i ask him for a plastic bag ..guess what he answer..."make of paper one har?" my god...is this what a father should say ? common sense , don he knows boy having slight fever, it's best not to let him catch the rain ? I am very disappointed with his answer...
Honestly , i consider myself as a good wife..I never once let him worry abt hse problem...bills , expense etc And i never once ask so much from him...but today when i see him ...I don feel love...the thing that come to my mind is "he is not a good son" "he is not a good father" " he is not a good hubby" i just wonder ...am i asking for too much ? i think i am just being fair and asking for what me as a wife should have ...THE CARE AND CONCERN FROM THE HUSBAND
I think i should put it that ...when u reach different stage you will look at things differently...I think i have already move on these far and he is still fare behind me , in his own world...
Dear God let me tell you ...if i ever left this guy who i have love and give out so much on...i know life for me will be very lost ...no more freedom for me to go drinking after work with friends...my whole life will be only my work and my boy...
and i know that he will still be as happy go lucky as before...
Being in this world for some many years...Marriage is really my biggest gamble that i bet on ...
And from his action...i knew i lost...
(my husband always likes to say , i dont promise u anything but i can only says action speaks louder then words...) and this time round , yes ...his action really speaks very loud....HA HA HA ..
Feel myself very stupid...since i can seat here and type some much and i knew so much about him ...but why i still don wan to leave him ...I also not sure....
Came across something that she mention...she say when 2 person came together ..they tends to wish or hope that the other person will behave as they wanted them too.. she maybe rite in some sense but at the same time...it's really case to case ...take my case for example...what i wan is just that when i fell ill , he will be there to feed me medi , to take my temp , to help me a bit with the kid...i don think i am asking for too much on this issue..
I think his love for me is getting less...or should i say he feel he has got more important things and he feel i can wait... whatever it is , we are very differ..today we bring boy out for breakfast..on our way back alittle bit of rain ...so i ask him for a plastic bag ..guess what he answer..."make of paper one har?" my god...is this what a father should say ? common sense , don he knows boy having slight fever, it's best not to let him catch the rain ? I am very disappointed with his answer...
Honestly , i consider myself as a good wife..I never once let him worry abt hse problem...bills , expense etc And i never once ask so much from him...but today when i see him ...I don feel love...the thing that come to my mind is "he is not a good son" "he is not a good father" " he is not a good hubby" i just wonder ...am i asking for too much ? i think i am just being fair and asking for what me as a wife should have ...THE CARE AND CONCERN FROM THE HUSBAND
I think i should put it that ...when u reach different stage you will look at things differently...I think i have already move on these far and he is still fare behind me , in his own world...
Dear God let me tell you ...if i ever left this guy who i have love and give out so much on...i know life for me will be very lost ...no more freedom for me to go drinking after work with friends...my whole life will be only my work and my boy...
and i know that he will still be as happy go lucky as before...
Being in this world for some many years...Marriage is really my biggest gamble that i bet on ...
And from his action...i knew i lost...
(my husband always likes to say , i dont promise u anything but i can only says action speaks louder then words...) and this time round , yes ...his action really speaks very loud....HA HA HA ..
Feel myself very stupid...since i can seat here and type some much and i knew so much about him ...but why i still don wan to leave him ...I also not sure....
I feel better now...
Dear All,
I was on 3 days MC...either sleep , vomit or cry at home...
because the stupid fever always never go down...and full body so ache.
and my man goes out nearly everyday till 4am...
anyway now i feel much much better after taking the medi from TTSH. but the sad thing is my boy has fever today...my god...he pass to me , i pass back to him...we both so poor thing rite...
this has make me realise one thing, if i stay with my man , i have to be well if i am sick then i don expect him to come and take care me...
dont talk about sad story liao...lotus thanks for your care...i know u really worry abt me...i be alrite..take care of yourself in thailand...
as for me suppose to go malacca on mon-wed , but boss get replacement liao, as he worry i may not be well to travel...so sad..this sickness cause me so many things...
I was on 3 days MC...either sleep , vomit or cry at home...
because the stupid fever always never go down...and full body so ache.
and my man goes out nearly everyday till 4am...
anyway now i feel much much better after taking the medi from TTSH. but the sad thing is my boy has fever today...my god...he pass to me , i pass back to him...we both so poor thing rite...
this has make me realise one thing, if i stay with my man , i have to be well if i am sick then i don expect him to come and take care me...
dont talk about sad story liao...lotus thanks for your care...i know u really worry abt me...i be alrite..take care of yourself in thailand...
as for me suppose to go malacca on mon-wed , but boss get replacement liao, as he worry i may not be well to travel...so sad..this sickness cause me so many things...
Wednesday, 27 August 2008
Really collapse !
Hi ladies,
Tot i better drop a line , or else u guys may tot something bad happen to me...heehee
Last nite half way while talking to him,suddenly running high fever 39.5...
so went to see doc..doc check this check that , then suddenly i broke down infront the doc...
he was shock but i quicky tell him i am alrite...he given me 2 days mc..and mention if still got fever , thur must go back to run some deng fever test...
Last nite he send me home , but he still goes out to drink till 4am , even when i am sick...
of coz i am very upset...
worse is this am ...boy wake up feeling headache and vomit for 4x...
i ask him to wake up to bring boy to see doc...and i wake him from 9.30am to 10am...
in my heart i was thinking...not good to me never mind boy what abt boy...
I think my heart start to die off liao...even if like wat he say , he facing lots of $ problem cannot concertra on other problems....just what have i done to have this kind of husband...
Tot i better drop a line , or else u guys may tot something bad happen to me...heehee
Last nite half way while talking to him,suddenly running high fever 39.5...
so went to see doc..doc check this check that , then suddenly i broke down infront the doc...
he was shock but i quicky tell him i am alrite...he given me 2 days mc..and mention if still got fever , thur must go back to run some deng fever test...
Last nite he send me home , but he still goes out to drink till 4am , even when i am sick...
of coz i am very upset...
worse is this am ...boy wake up feeling headache and vomit for 4x...
i ask him to wake up to bring boy to see doc...and i wake him from 9.30am to 10am...
in my heart i was thinking...not good to me never mind boy what abt boy...
I think my heart start to die off liao...even if like wat he say , he facing lots of $ problem cannot concertra on other problems....just what have i done to have this kind of husband...
Tuesday, 26 August 2008
I suddenly feel so stressful..headache , tummy ache , hands and legs all cold
Is it due to stress ? Am i going under some depression ? Do i need to see doctor ?
As i mention b4 that we are having some $ problem and really no way to solve ..
I am just being naive that by standing by his side .. i am able to give him some support and no problems are problems...
These few days i been having bad tummy ache esp in the mid of the nite...3AM + , i am tired but i can't sleep due to the pain...
Just now he called me ...same question...asking me how ? Am i able to help ? After i put down the phone , my headache and hands and legs are turn cold...
Suddenly i become so scare that i will suddenly die off or go mad...
Because i haven change my CPF will , and lots of AIA insurance haven put under boy's name...
and even this blog of mine...I never let any of those people that i know , read...
Coz i wan face ...and i know friends and relative will sure ask me to let go...
Suddenly i was thinking , maybe i should sell my flat and that's it ...he goes him own way and i goes my own...
Currently this looks like the only solution...
Coz he didn't wan to give up on his "hobby"
Not even for me or the son...
Not even for his mum...
Seeing him like that , it just hurt us (people that loves him)
I am a very strong person...so many things has happen before but i never once think of taking my own life ...maybe i am chicken hearted ..ha ha
Believe me till now i have not think about it ..
I am writing this , is just that suddenly i feel so unwell ...so scare will suddenly collapse ...
Dont worry if i cont to feel unwell i will go and see doctor...
But i need to meet him 1st tonite...
As i mention b4 that we are having some $ problem and really no way to solve ..
I am just being naive that by standing by his side .. i am able to give him some support and no problems are problems...
These few days i been having bad tummy ache esp in the mid of the nite...3AM + , i am tired but i can't sleep due to the pain...
Just now he called me ...same question...asking me how ? Am i able to help ? After i put down the phone , my headache and hands and legs are turn cold...
Suddenly i become so scare that i will suddenly die off or go mad...
Because i haven change my CPF will , and lots of AIA insurance haven put under boy's name...
and even this blog of mine...I never let any of those people that i know , read...
Coz i wan face ...and i know friends and relative will sure ask me to let go...
Suddenly i was thinking , maybe i should sell my flat and that's it ...he goes him own way and i goes my own...
Currently this looks like the only solution...
Coz he didn't wan to give up on his "hobby"
Not even for me or the son...
Not even for his mum...
Seeing him like that , it just hurt us (people that loves him)
I am a very strong person...so many things has happen before but i never once think of taking my own life ...maybe i am chicken hearted ..ha ha
Believe me till now i have not think about it ..
I am writing this , is just that suddenly i feel so unwell ...so scare will suddenly collapse ...
Dont worry if i cont to feel unwell i will go and see doctor...
But i need to meet him 1st tonite...
给老公的一封信！！！
老公如果你爱上了别人， 与她约会时，一定不要让我的朋友看见， 让我的朋友知道后会替我难过。
老公如果你爱上了别人， 请在我亲眼看到或从他人那里得知真相以前告诉我， 让我有时间做好离开你的准备。
老公如果你爱上了别人， 不要以为我不说，就当我不知道，继续欺骗我， 还假惺惺地认为是怕伤害我的缘故，是你有良心表现。
老公如果你爱上了别人， 发现最爱的还是我，请不要对我说给你一点时间来处理你和她的问题。 这样的敷衍，如同在烈火中煎熬，还不如直截了当地放我离开。
老公如果你爱上了别人， 与我分手后，最终还是迷途知返，想回头是岸， 这时请原谅我有说不的权利。
老公如果你爱上了别人， 请立刻在我和她之间作出选择，不要犹豫不决，耽误大家的时间， 伤害太多的人。
我不迷信从一而终，但我相信执子之手， 与子偕老的童话；
我不迷信坚贞不渝，但我认为婚姻是一种责任。
老公如果你爱上了别人， 请在我亲眼看到或从他人那里得知真相以前告诉我， 让我有时间做好离开你的准备。
老公如果你爱上了别人， 不要以为我不说，就当我不知道，继续欺骗我， 还假惺惺地认为是怕伤害我的缘故，是你有良心表现。
老公如果你爱上了别人， 发现最爱的还是我，请不要对我说给你一点时间来处理你和她的问题。 这样的敷衍，如同在烈火中煎熬，还不如直截了当地放我离开。
老公如果你爱上了别人， 与我分手后，最终还是迷途知返，想回头是岸， 这时请原谅我有说不的权利。
老公如果你爱上了别人， 请立刻在我和她之间作出选择，不要犹豫不决，耽误大家的时间， 伤害太多的人。
我不迷信从一而终，但我相信执子之手， 与子偕老的童话；
我不迷信坚贞不渝，但我认为婚姻是一种责任。
Monday, 25 August 2008
有一种爱叫做放手
如果两个人的天堂 象是温馨的墙 囚禁你的梦想
幸福是否象是一扇铁窗 候鸟失去了南方
如果你对天空向往 渴望一双翅膀 放手让你飞翔
你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰 听从凋谢的时光
浪漫如果变成了牵绊 我愿为你选择回到孤单
缠绵如果变成了锁链 抛开诺言
有一种爱叫做放手 为爱放弃天长地久
我们相守若让你付出所有 让真爱带我走
为爱结束天长地久 我的离去若让你拥有所有
让真爱带我走 说分手
幸福是否象是一扇铁窗 候鸟失去了南方
如果你对天空向往 渴望一双翅膀 放手让你飞翔
你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰 听从凋谢的时光
浪漫如果变成了牵绊 我愿为你选择回到孤单
缠绵如果变成了锁链 抛开诺言
有一种爱叫做放手 为爱放弃天长地久
我们相守若让你付出所有 让真爱带我走
为爱结束天长地久 我的离去若让你拥有所有
让真爱带我走 说分手
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