Is it due to stress ? Am i going under some depression ? Do i need to see doctor ?
As i mention b4 that we are having some $ problem and really no way to solve ..
I am just being naive that by standing by his side .. i am able to give him some support and no problems are problems...
These few days i been having bad tummy ache esp in the mid of the nite...3AM + , i am tired but i can't sleep due to the pain...
Just now he called me ...same question...asking me how ? Am i able to help ? After i put down the phone , my headache and hands and legs are turn cold...
Suddenly i become so scare that i will suddenly die off or go mad...
Because i haven change my CPF will , and lots of AIA insurance haven put under boy's name...
and even this blog of mine...I never let any of those people that i know , read...
Coz i wan face ...and i know friends and relative will sure ask me to let go...
Suddenly i was thinking , maybe i should sell my flat and that's it ...he goes him own way and i goes my own...
Currently this looks like the only solution...
Coz he didn't wan to give up on his "hobby"
Not even for me or the son...
Not even for his mum...
Seeing him like that , it just hurt us (people that loves him)
I am a very strong person...so many things has happen before but i never once think of taking my own life ...maybe i am chicken hearted ..ha ha
Believe me till now i have not think about it ..
I am writing this , is just that suddenly i feel so unwell ...so scare will suddenly collapse ...
Dont worry if i cont to feel unwell i will go and see doctor...
But i need to meet him 1st tonite...
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Ohhh...
Guess you are too stressed.
Take good care of yourself so that you can take care of your son.
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Hi appletea, I saw ur updated tag n tot i come n take a look at u. Aiyo, single problem, married also problem. Jus Alice n now you. Don't u think u shld see a conselor? mayb they can help u. Did u eat anything? hand cold feet cold and stomach pain - see a doc lah! u take care.
appleteas,
i am not in a good position to advise you. but i just voice my feelings.. yes.. you can stand by him, help him if he is sincere in starting over with you... who will help you and yr boy if one day you are in trouble? will he? i know hus n wife must help each other in down period.. but if its worth? if he is really sincere and cutting off tides with tow, and if yr life can go back to usual, i will also consider to help him but if not, i might have to think twice.. i been through it.. just share my tots...
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