......

I am fully exhausted by work today ...
no mood to comment on any thing...
and yes , i can't live without a MAN !!!

U are not me ...u won't understand...

There is this anonymous 946 who comment in my blog...
Only one thing i can say ...u are not me , u won't understand...
Last time when i see this kind of comment i will feel sad ,
but this time round i did not...
because i know that i need not answer to everybody of my decision and i
also need not answer to anyone that am i just everytime say say only..

he or she mention...

if love made you so tire, then whats there for you to hold on ?

don tell me if someone very tire of living then better go and end their life..

if making decision on such thing is soooo easy , then this thing will not be a problem ... i am not the only person living in this world...any decision done ,
i am actually affecting alot alot of people and alot alot of things...
marriage is not 2 person matters and so is divorce...

he or she also mention...

You think you cannot leave him because you LOVE HIM????? Then by making a man who don't love you to sleep beside look GREAT????

and yes , my answer is i still love him till now...and it's not so easy as let go and find another man , another new life ... if getting out and find someone new to love is so easy then what value is love ?
and i also do not need to answer to anyone of do i look great to sleep beside a man who dont love me... how many person can confirm that the person sleeping beside you loves only you ?
And i don think he dont love me , more or less still have a little but of coz love himself more.

You are as selfish as your husband.
LOVE HIM is your excuse........having a complete family is also an excuse....... money is also an excuse........your son also an excuse...............

you may be right...i got lots of excuses ...

I know my matter best ....and yes , till this very moment i am still confuse...

To my readers , i write this blog to let myself vent, so that i will feel better ,
coz i do not have people to talk to ...
u do not need to agree with whatever i say but pls have some respect...
if you feel that i write all nonsense , then dont log on to my blog...
i record down my true feelings ...anything wrong with that ?
i am a normal human , i am not a movie star or anything ,
i am just a normal woman , wanted normal life...
maybe 10 years down the road , i am still the same ...
still complaining and still no action...only god knows
maybe people is getting tired of my blog, but i dont care , i dont write
hoping more people to come in and read my blog...
and i don need people to see anything great in me ...

18feb09

Feeling tired today ...
feel like going back to zzzzzzz
work matter quite good... bosses respect my decision of mostly everything..
hope to get awarded projects very soon..
and my image of myself actually change...
i am more executive look now...haha
fell in love with pure mineral make up powder..
very good very natural...
oh ya...yesterday my boy told me about his "girl friend" in k1...
cannot stand him ..nowadays kids..horrible...
he say she kiss him everyday , coz she say he is cutie ..
infact i find my boy really quite handsome ..haha
as for myself ...really dont know ..

Wake up !!!

What will you do if someone tells you he is not able to change ?
Be it for the seek of family or himself ?
Yes , the message is being send across ...
" I will not change ..."
stay by me and endure it or just leave it...
I got to really admit that this is nothing new and i been laying to myself
all these while , believing and give chance one after another thinking that he will change.. now my heart break ...not sure what to do ?
To stay put , i think i am crazy..
yes , till now i still love him alot...
but what about my dear son...i need to think for him too...
he ..don love me as much as i love him...
I scare of cats but he never chase them for me ,
i say i like a handbag but he never bother to find out which one i like ..
never bore to give me surprise..
no sign of improvement...still late nite ..
i promise myself that i will give it a final thought...tonite...
but $1800 per month can be a single mother ?
i wonder ...
giving out is really not a easy task...

songs !!!

曲名：爱你实在太累


感情渐渐离去泪湿我的心 忘记这段情 忘记你是我唯一
女人的心早已离去
撕碎的回忆让我狠狠忘记你 爱你实在太累
没有后悔流下泪 疼你的人已心醉
用过的泪不后悔 虽然爱你实在太累
爱过的人不想再醉
伤了 走了 醉了 碎了
爱了你实在太累
喔欧欧～～
爱你实在太累 没有后悔流下泪
疼你的人已心醉 用过的泪不后悔
虽然爱你实在太累 爱过的人不想再醉
伤了 走了 醉了 碎了
爱了你实在太累

songs !!!

爱上你是一个错
作词 作曲:陈国华
演唱:廖昌永

人生有许多难关要过
自古是情关最让人难受
也许我命中注定情海中颠簸
为你我付出这么的多
却让我痛到有苦不能说
因为我爱你就像那飞蛾扑向火
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我失魂落魄著了魔
解开我的迷惑收起你的冷漠
你怎忍心这样做
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我漫漫长夜守寂寞
伤痛已经太多心也早以伤透
我已不想再为谁去等候

人生有许多难关要过
自古是情关最让人难受
也许我命中注定情海中颠簸
为你我付出这么的多
却让我痛到有苦不能说
因为我爱你就像那飞蛾扑向火
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我失魂落魄著了魔
解开我的迷惑收起你的冷漠
你怎忍心这样做
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我漫漫长夜守寂寞
伤痛已经太多心也早以伤透
我已不想再为谁去等候
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我失魂落魄著了魔
解开我的迷惑收起你的冷漠
你怎忍心这样做
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我漫漫长夜守寂寞
伤痛已经太多心也早以伤透
我已不想再为谁去等候

Happy Valentine !

This day to me is not as meaningful as before...
last time i will get angry if this day is not being celebrated or no flowers for me.
but now i am alrite...and of coz this year i got nothing too...
when both people care alot about each other ,
everyday also is valentine...
but when both are not in love ...
everyday is a horrible day...
i used to always say , i am doing it for boy...
but i think i am selfish...
i realise more and more that this home enviroment is really not suitable for a kid...
i become quite worry...
i am so afraid he will get influence all the bad habits...
am i really thinking for him ?
if i really think for him , all the more i should be something...
coz up bringing is very important...