It's a kind of sickness !!

Does anyone knows what is serial cheater ?
I think I am living with one !
My heart very pain , I am not sure how or what to do ...
But I feel very helpless.
I cannot accept him being unfaithful , at the same time he is not remorseful , at all this time round.
I wonder why ? And no sign of he willing to change to save this marriage...
And why am I still hanging on ?
But I really still love him a lot ...
What should I do ?
I confirm he is sick , he is a serial cheater !
Like what he said , u can chase away this one but I cannot promise when will be the next one!
What am I ?
We been through so much ... Why ?
I am silly but till now he still will SMS me that he miss me or he love me ...and I am happy .
Who knows how many gals he SMS everyday rite ...
But why ? Will there be a day when he get tired of playing ?
I really dun believe he is so bad but action really show ..
Do I want this kind of life ? What is marriage ?
Can I share ?
Don't I want someone to love me ? Don't I deserve more attention n love ?
I am miserable ...
Maybe if he tell me he want to leave me for her , I will be happier...

好无奈！！

没想到我又回来写blog了。
这一次心情更佳复杂，心里一直想，为什么?？
没有办法给自己一个答案！
为什么，我付出了那么多，到后来，还是有第三者。。。
在他人生低潮时，我的慰问，我的关心，我的付出，难道是多余的？
到底为什么？
外面真的就那么好玩吗？
那我在你心里到底是什么？
问题是，我还是不舍得，我还是放不下。
多没用！
我不想结束，但是我也不能接受。。。。
我好烦！
为什么，这种事会发生在我的家庭。
为什么，我还是放不下。

too mature and too childish

I think my son is too mature for his age...
and my husband is too childish for his age...
faint !
my son lately kept asking me ... if one day me and the father get old and die , would he be left alone in the world ! and after that he started to cry ! very mature boy. and when his pet pass away , he cry like no body business !
as for the father , until now still don know how to plan for himself !
still wasting lots of time ! at time i am quite harsh to him .
it's just like a needle pop into his heart and of course he cant take it.
but what ever i do and say , it's for his own good !
listen to my advise or not , it's his choice.
as a wife , i can only give advise but if the person refuse to take it ,
honestly there isnt anything i can do !
and yes , that shameless person is back in s'pore but if doesnt affect me at all.

as for my new job , so far so good but being a new person in the office ,
i feel like a operator answering the phone call and passing to who ever.
because everyone is waiting for the new staff to answer , sigh !
what to do !
and making new friends is a big problem to me...
because i dont take much and dont know what to talk actually...
so everytime during lunch , i would seat there and listen to them talk ...

Back from holiday

Just came back from a holiday ...
well it was really like heaven during the holiday.
Now that i am back , everything is stress !
got to face the same old pressure !
Sigh !
Is this what life is all about ?
Wish i am not back ... wish i am still on holiday .
But no choice.
During this family trip .. everyone enjoy.
The daddy and the son had a great time together .

Mis understanding

In life there are so many misunderstanding ...
one after another...
mum had around of thunder storm last night...
and end up quarrel with sis ... who is very worry about mum health (as mum got high blood etc)
actually this thing start as mum tot that the 神祖牌of ah ma and ah gong is being throw
away by aunty... so that is how it started... and mum temper as usual is very very big...
so my poor sister gana...
actually no one throw anything , it's just a mis com and mis understanding ...
Glad that things are now cleared.

10Jun2010

Ups and Downs for so long ...
things still more or less remain the same.
Family life as usual .. not as fruitful as what was promise.
But at least something to be happy about ...
i have tender and found a job...

My heart win again !

After so long of the mind and heart matters...
in the end, my heart win again...
i am giving one more chance ...
although i am disappointed with myself but at least after making this decision ..
u can see the smile on my face again...
and as promise , he went to lta to proceed with his taxi lic...
just hope all turn up well and
hope he will be able to treasure this family.