19nov09

Have not been blogging for the pass few months...reason: getting tired of my own blog and my own life...
everything seems to be repeating over and over again...
giving me hope and pushing me all the way down again and giving me hope again...
i believe he is not going to change.
but at the same time , there's no action that i wan to do...
search me...not even sure what am i doing myself...
currently i am in desaru ..leading a group but home matter is in a mess...
the worse is i cant cry...
and the thing that i am now looking forward to is , boy going to P1 next year...
not sure what to blog about...i only want to sigh sigh sigh...
anyway i bought this upon myself...no body to blame...