Mad house in office today !!!

Our office has just change to 2 new system....
Really going crazy over it ... so troublesome and so difficult to use...
Messy !!!
Maybe it's really just a matter of getting used to it ... but too many things happen at one shot...
Cannot really take it ...
Both home and work...all driving me crazy...

Tonite got to go and meet someone that in debt with ...not sure what is going to happen...but i
know that it's not going to be easy to settle and my man sometimes can be so hot temper...
God...i hope there's no quarrel tonite and really hope it will be a friendly settlement...

Office matters

So angry in office today , maybe it's due to my mood !
Feel everything is so unfair !
How come i got to do all the stupid paper work and people can just don do , just becoz she say don know how to do...
DON'T KNOW THEN LEARN LAR...
fed up ...

Black days ahead !

Weekend was peaceful..bought mooncake for mum and nanny.
Hubby even spend time with the boy ...kite flying !
This is my hubby , whenever he is down .. then he will spend time with me , boy and even accompany me to mum hsc.. not sure if i should be happy enough.

Last nite suddenly felt very uneasy , wanted so much then he can hug me to sleep but of coz never lor...
Tears feel like dropping but do not want to worry him.
Had asked him a question which i later regret that i had asked...
I ask him now that i am with his side to go through this hard ship together , does he has confidence that we both will have happy ending together and he will not have another woman...
His answer is very clear cut ...he say no confidence...it really just leave me wonder then what is the point of me going through the hard times together...i don feel appreciate , really !
Life with hubby is really full of ups and downs...so much that sometimes my heart cannot stand it...
Maybe he feel that it's best that i can leave him ... (I am not very sure what he thinks...)

My personal problem really is affecting my job ...i dont mean it , but i really cannot concentrate.
Everyday worry about his problem...everyday thinking where to find more $...
I know at the end of the day , it's really he himself that can help himself...and i know very well that he will never stop gamble...he will ... when he has the $ again.

Feel that he never have the time for me to talk about my emotional...last time when i wanted to talk about it , he is not interested ...coz he is more interested in those women outside...now that he is down , he is still not interested to hear me out coz he has got problems to face...
When will i ever have a chance to talk about myself...

I came from a family that dont drink , don bet...but i married into a family that smokes , drink and bet...do u know the pressure that i am facing...
I have never face $ problem but do u know the stress that i have to face when i am now in debt ...
When i pass him the $ ..he has never ask me where the $ come from....
Does it bore him ? Have he ever ask do i still have the $ to pay for boy school fee ?

This question just come into my mind today...it's worth the waiting ?
But i really don have the heart to leave him at the current moment...How can i ?
When he is feeling so down in his life....

赌。。是害人的东西！！！

真的很烦。。
已经好几天没睡好了。
家里有些烦人的事。。。
总知赌是害人的！真的好累！一下是有女人， 一下是一身债。
真不知道上辈子是不是欠他的！

Have not been sleeping well for the past few days...coz the person sleeping beside me keep having nite mare...guess he is too stressful. If these goes on...he will soon be crazy.
What can i do ? Throw him aside , don care abt him ? I can't ...I just can't !
He has lost his way in life...how can i be so cruel to leave him to rot by himself...
If in the beginning , i married him becoz of $ of coz now i can leave everything behind and wash my hands off everything...but i married him out of love...
I believe he will change one day ...i go all out is for his own good and not mine...
I believe he is smart enough to know what is right and wrong...
I believe he just lost his way and i need to be there to help him to find his way back , becoz i am his wife...the whole world can give out on him but i can't...

I feel that Lotus knows me the best....
Lotus am i rite ? Are u back from Bangkok ?

Thomas & Friends Live On Stage !

After a long long wait...finally this day arrival , I am bring my boy to EXPO to watch his fav thomas...he has been looking forward to these day...since JUL 08.
Too bad the daddy will not join us... i expected it long ago..
Cant have our family time again...
Who cares...just as long as my boy enjoy it , it's still worth it...

凡人= 烦人

真的很烦。。从上新期二晚就病！以为好了， 哪知来个大伤风。。。
一下冷， 一下热。。人一没$ 问题就来了！
有时。。人真的很烦，像我。。真的不知道“老婆”应该在生活中扮演一个怎么样的角色？
是不是把家里照顾好，疼公公，婆婆，相夫教子，这就是个好老婆吗？
那为什么每当老公做错事时，所有的毛头都会指着你，说你不会管教他。
感觉好委屈，老公又不是我生的，这也要算在我头上吗？
那老公做好时，有没有人会拍拍我的肩膀说我教的好呢？

I am well and start work already...

Hi all... I am back to office today , tot still a bit lazy , but better be able to work then fell sick rite.

Yesterday forget to post...Yesterday is Malaysia national day although not much of my concern but it happens to be my dating anny of 14 years lor..no celebration , nothing...But i also got no hard feelings...coz i know he is under alot of stress ...



During my sick time , i lost alot of things...

i lost $ (pay doctor..so exp) but i see who are those who are really concern abt me

i lost health but i become stronger in handling my emotion problems

i lost my chance of leading a group to malacca but i gain time spending with boy



i know that we need to be in good health in order to take care of things at home and in order to handle what ever problems that comes along , and only u and take good care of yourself and really my boy is very important to me (when he fell ill, how i take care of him in the mid of the nite) hoping he will recover soon and be healthy...and i also realise that boy is getting more and more naughty...guess i too long never really spend time with him to understand him...



As for my hubby , his problem is getting bigger...not sure what to tell him...But he has really done alot of wrong thing...and it's going to cause him to lost alot of friends...
Hope he can really learn from mistake and really have to buck up and do his best in his career..

I always believe in giving chances ..but must really learn from mistakes..