赌。。是害人的东西！！！

真的很烦。。
已经好几天没睡好了。
家里有些烦人的事。。。
总知赌是害人的！真的好累！一下是有女人， 一下是一身债。
真不知道上辈子是不是欠他的！

Have not been sleeping well for the past few days...coz the person sleeping beside me keep having nite mare...guess he is too stressful. If these goes on...he will soon be crazy.
What can i do ? Throw him aside , don care abt him ? I can't ...I just can't !
He has lost his way in life...how can i be so cruel to leave him to rot by himself...
If in the beginning , i married him becoz of $ of coz now i can leave everything behind and wash my hands off everything...but i married him out of love...
I believe he will change one day ...i go all out is for his own good and not mine...
I believe he is smart enough to know what is right and wrong...
I believe he just lost his way and i need to be there to help him to find his way back , becoz i am his wife...the whole world can give out on him but i can't...

I feel that Lotus knows me the best....
Lotus am i rite ? Are u back from Bangkok ?