sunday...me and boy day !

didn't have a good sleep last night..
2 reasons..
01) boy cough and vomit last night around 4am...
02) till now he is still not home...
when i was laying on the bed last night...
i think alot...
thinking of my new role in the office...
thinking of will the rest of the staff dislike me ?
thinking of how to take in more business for the company?
thinking of my boy ?
thinking of life alone with my boy , how is it like etc?
thinking of what a irresponsible guy i have married to...
but honestly , even if things dont work out , i dont hate him ...
i got no regrets in my marriage...because i really have put in effort to make it work.
i think during all these years i have been a great wife..
a wife that alot of guys would want ...
too bad it just didn;t work...
i cant change him ...
no such power to ...

maybe it really i gain some and at the same thing i lose some...