Sunday, 17 August 2008

Now watching the final table tennis...singapore via china...
being a singaporean of coz i wish we will win.. and also becoz of the other china woman in my life... of coz i would wish our country to win hers...singapore jie you !!!
This afternoon..got my hubby starhub bill..look through it and found the woman's sin number and of coz her china no. when she is back ...can't help but feel alittle uneasy..
sometimes even wish i am blind ..
I really hope he is no longer contacting her...it just not fair to me..singapore just had too much too much china woman...and of coz hubby is also one of those horrible man...
why ? such a lovely family he don wan ...why ? what so good abt her ?
anyway these are not the right time to ask these questions...coz he got more things to settle ...
sometimes i wish i am not so soft hearted...i wish i can just leave everything behind...
but i just can't !!!

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

We share the same problem , too soft hearted and still LOVE and waiting for him to change and love us as truthfully as we...I am looking for someone who has been through this and is happily living now...Hope we can find the RIGHT person to pull us out.But meanwhile I am also trying to tell myself to think rationally is he really worth my love and the problem is still we "refuse" to accept and still thinking of all the happy and good things of him despite knowing that he is hurting and is so cruel to hurt and deceive us. No matter what and how, I still want to say that we must try hard to.And for your case you still have kid and so that can be your very good motivator. At least you still have your kid with you.

For my case, he has very bad temper and lies a lot to me. Sometimes is nice but I know he is not real. Even when he is good to me, that is fake. I love him a lot and refuse to accept or running away from the truth and foolishly waiting for him to be moved by me. But I am also trying hard to accept and then maybe know what to do. We know what to do and what kind of person he is but we refuse to accept and escaping...Hope we can face and accept one day...

No matter what, don't give up on your child. Ultimately a child needs mother more than father.

karen

Apple tea said...

Love can kill ...
Maybe to alot of ppl , i am foolish..but i really being through alot with him...I may not be happily living wz my current problem but at least i see he trying to change..
don worry i will not give out on my son.