The truth always hurts...

Just read Lotus posting for today...
Came across something that she mention...she say when 2 person came together ..they tends to wish or hope that the other person will behave as they wanted them too.. she maybe rite in some sense but at the same time...it's really case to case ...take my case for example...what i wan is just that when i fell ill , he will be there to feed me medi , to take my temp , to help me a bit with the kid...i don think i am asking for too much on this issue..
I think his love for me is getting less...or should i say he feel he has got more important things and he feel i can wait... whatever it is , we are very differ..today we bring boy out for breakfast..on our way back alittle bit of rain ...so i ask him for a plastic bag ..guess what he answer..."make of paper one har?" my god...is this what a father should say ? common sense , don he knows boy having slight fever, it's best not to let him catch the rain ? I am very disappointed with his answer...
Honestly , i consider myself as a good wife..I never once let him worry abt hse problem...bills , expense etc And i never once ask so much from him...but today when i see him ...I don feel love...the thing that come to my mind is "he is not a good son" "he is not a good father" " he is not a good hubby" i just wonder ...am i asking for too much ? i think i am just being fair and asking for what me as a wife should have ...THE CARE AND CONCERN FROM THE HUSBAND
I think i should put it that ...when u reach different stage you will look at things differently...I think i have already move on these far and he is still fare behind me , in his own world...
Dear God let me tell you ...if i ever left this guy who i have love and give out so much on...i know life for me will be very lost ...no more freedom for me to go drinking after work with friends...my whole life will be only my work and my boy...
and i know that he will still be as happy go lucky as before...
Being in this world for some many years...Marriage is really my biggest gamble that i bet on ...
And from his action...i knew i lost...
(my husband always likes to say , i dont promise u anything but i can only says action speaks louder then words...) and this time round , yes ...his action really speaks very loud....HA HA HA ..
Feel myself very stupid...since i can seat here and type some much and i knew so much about him ...but why i still don wan to leave him ...I also not sure....