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A friend told me that i should be posting happy things instead of sad things in my blog..
He asked "why do u wan to remember all the sad things?"
I think for a while.. My answer is a blog is for me to honestly voice out my feeling be it happy or sad..
And if u r a follower in my blog, u should have know and realise that i have change alot and i take things more easy now
compare to last time and in my blog i do have happy postings too..
So don assume.
I will still cont to write and don force yourself to read if u don wan to..
I write to vex my feelings and not to write to lie abt all the good things to hope more ppl will come it to read.
and at the same time lie to myself that i am happy..who don't wish to be happy ???
And further more currently i really cant think of any happy things.
Money problem , marriage problem , health problem..how to be happy...
But of coz i dont pull a long black face daily lar...i still smile to ppl and i really don look like i am troubled.
I am not a young little girl.. those things abt wow i have kfc for lunch today or i saw a handsome guy today etc is just not my type.
Ok enough abt this friend of mine.

Back to myself.. I am not a 婆妈 person..
I have my own mind but i consider too much on other ppl feeling.
I think for my love ones before i think for myself but 吃力不讨好never get appreciated.
I am consider independent.
It not that i don know wat is good for me but i really don wish to cause a person to give up on himself just bcoz i ask for a divorce.
and i also don wan to make the wrong move..
Many may think this is stupid but i am a very 感情用事的人。
I am born like that.
Honestly i did think of dxxxxxx.. Is just that i got to think twice.
I am a person who is once decided nothing can change my mind..
So i am scare to decide. Ha ha confuse rite.
I guess the feeling is still there...so it's not so easy !

Most of the time he can't seem to understand my point of view...
a very stubbon and unreasonable person.
He is not a person that will do some soul searching..
I am worried , very very worried about what will come next...
It's not fully because of $ matters that cause the hiccup in our marriage..
money matter - 20%
affair matters - 30%
unreasonable behaviour - 50%
爱会让人失去自我

我不会选择怨恨。
毕竟爱一个人很难，恨一个人也很难。
怨恨只会让人遮蔽了双眼，看不清路的方向，
伤害自己的同时亦伤害了爱自己的人。