Feeling down.

Today i fail...only get 40 marks...
took half day to take care of my boy...very headache..
nearly 365 days cough...now sure what to do with him..
heartache to see him cough till like that...
tried western and chinese all also like that.
Well i am the mother..taking care of him is my responsible..no choice.

The person who makes me feel so down is him again..
Once i reach home...he goes out ..never ever come home for dinner ..
even when i took the trouble to cook...

Still call and tell me no choice but have to gamble...really Fxxx off ..
Not sure how long can stand him...
very very fed up...

MIL not in this whole week..never ever help up with the kids..
always think there are people who will help and he is that kind of
people who only do big thing...shit man.

I hate it when he always put me last...
everytime is friends come 1st..
even at this kind of situation that i stand by him..but i am still last..

Appleteas when will u ever wake up...
Stop hurting yourself...this kind of man who dont even know
how to treasure family and u...wan him for Fxxx.

I really don know and dont understand myself...
what am i waiting for ?
how many times must i get hurt to wake up...

Useless appleteas !!!